So I guess I am into self torture now

I agreed to meet a pregnant friend and her one year old daughter for lunch tomorrow. We have been BFFs since kindergarten and have lost touch over the past 2 years. She has been trying to get back in touch so I could not turn her down. Its not her fault I can’t get pregnant and she can look at her husband and BAM! I really do miss her. We always had so much fun together. She is the closest friend I have ever had. I will go and put on a smile as I am dying inside. I already warned J that I will be depressed when I get home and he will have to cheer me up. I really hope I can pull this off.